Tag: passion

Writers block. Achievers block. Mommin’ block. A huge LIFE BLOCK. So now what?

Join me as I attempt to unveil the thoughts that keep me moving forward in life.

Let’s Get After It …

The fall time is always the most life changing for my soul. I usually go hermit and commit to dive deep in my shadows to receive the blessings for the new year.

It’s ALWAYS super f*cking challenging and always demanding of my energy. I describe it as depressing to others.

I usually don’t have the energy or patience to explain what hermit mode or shadow work is. Although it’s quite common.

But, apparently, right here and right now, I am going to start this blog with a big bang.

Let’s Bang It Up With Hermit Mode

Hermit Mode. Or what others call it … isolation.

Most people I explain this to like to chastise and judge. They like to tell me how unhealthy it is to isolate.

Others give their opinions based upon their own life perceptions.

I learned that I can not take everyone’s advice and I have to advocate what’s best for my soul.

After all, that’s what this journey here on Earth is about, right?

Learning lessons to heal, level up to share your story with others in hopes they become wise like the teacher?

For me, Hermit Mode is a time where I can meditate, journal, reflect and do whatever the f*ck I want. I don’t have to answer to anyone, receive judgment, or allow anyone to bleed their perspectives into my visions.

It’s a time where I can set intentions to accept what my soul brings to my attention, feel it, deal with it, accept it, and let it go.

Each year I find myself leveling up and learning so much more about myself and others. It’s absolutely amazing and I hope you all give yourself this type of attention.

So I explained what “Hermit Mode” is, let’s talk about the shadow side.

What Is The Shadow Side?

Everyone has a Shadow Side. It’s the trauma and pain our souls experience throughout eternity.

I like to accept my Shadow Side as a blessing; an opportunity to heal and receive wisdom. You see, for every amount of pain, there’s an equal amount of blessing. We simply have to be willing to accept the pain to receive the wisdom.

So many times, we get caught up somewhere during this process.

Accept.

Feel.

Forgive.

Let go.

We are humans, after all … meaning we don’t have a manual to this life. We are all walking around trying to sort through our own sh*t, just like everyone else.

One’s Shadow Side is an opportunity to break free from the social norms and become an individual. To step into the unknown and be willing to experience the new.

However, it comes with a price. Pain. So much unforgiving pain. The kind of pain that makes you curl up in a ball and weep like a child.

Our physical, emotional, spiritual, mental, and energetic bodies all carry experiences and it’s up to us to determine their affect and worth.

Many people choose to mask the pain with devices such as addictions and distractions.

I like to use distractions because addictions aren’t my thing. I distract myself with work, mommin’, the gym, counting macros, scrolling online, obsessively researching recipes. Recently, my research topic is how to make homemade bread. (I found the easiest protein pretzel recipe that came out great and has only a few ingredients!)

All right, enough with the shadow side, let’s talk about the why.

So What’s All This Pain Mean?

That’s the gazillion dollar question… and it’s unique to everyone.

For me, this journey is about self acceptance and taking risks: recovering from people pleasing and being a unicorn.

I have so many ideas and passions I want to explore and achieve, however I am a perfectionist. I make excuses in my head as to why I can’t take action and stay frozen.

However, it appears that’s what’s changing for me next year. Starting with this blog. It doesn’t have to be perfect and I can be me. I am not perfect. Yet, I am unique and accept myself for who I am, so why should I be shy to share me with the world?

Is it fear? Is it shame? Is it self judgement? Sure… it’s all of those.

However, if I don’t take this risk and put myself out into the world and do what fills my heart with passion, then what’s the point of being here?

So here I am world. A little bit of me and a little bit of wisdom.

xoxo,

Kristin